Iced Moors
Long time coming. Broken down moods that cut through the icy moors. So clear are the thoughts but the mind seems as though fog settles deeply. This morning I wanted to get away. Carried away almost and I found myself still looking for an answer where no words would collide.
Still in this lost moment I wanted to pursue a joyful line of conversation only to realize that the walls have been built solid. And as the mind unfolded with so many questions and statements the soul began to feel empty.
All in that one moment I felt completely, utterly drained of any kind of happiness. Yet then the light at the end of the darkness twinkled and I opened my emotions to the warmth. Then in that few minutes I was able to unwind myself from the dampened darkness I was swimming in.
Sometimes I am not sure if I really want to speak to people or if I just need to know I am needed. And as I sigh at this moment I realize that the rainy day was meant for a walking. This activity invigorated me so much that I kept finding one surplus of energy after the other. One grand surprise after another. That is what makes me realize even more so just how important I am to God.
I can't explain how it would make you feel in my moments and if you would even pull through. Yet here I am making my way, as I should, carefully. Even in my worst bleakest tendrils of time, I strive for that opening in hope. That is how I have faith.
I keep searching. That is what makes me different than the way life threw me before. I am at this calm.
And when I notice the moods switching into a deep low blues I just have to look for the truth in a situation. Finding what is supposed to pull me forward. When you experience that, in whatever way you need to, peace comes to your mind. Calm enters your spirit and energy builds your soul.
Perhaps one day I can say that a conversation over a stronghold will break the mortar enough to allow passage. Who know what is to come? All we can do is have faith, pray and remember of hope. This will help carry us outside all that is dark within.
Still in this lost moment I wanted to pursue a joyful line of conversation only to realize that the walls have been built solid. And as the mind unfolded with so many questions and statements the soul began to feel empty.
All in that one moment I felt completely, utterly drained of any kind of happiness. Yet then the light at the end of the darkness twinkled and I opened my emotions to the warmth. Then in that few minutes I was able to unwind myself from the dampened darkness I was swimming in.
Sometimes I am not sure if I really want to speak to people or if I just need to know I am needed. And as I sigh at this moment I realize that the rainy day was meant for a walking. This activity invigorated me so much that I kept finding one surplus of energy after the other. One grand surprise after another. That is what makes me realize even more so just how important I am to God.
I can't explain how it would make you feel in my moments and if you would even pull through. Yet here I am making my way, as I should, carefully. Even in my worst bleakest tendrils of time, I strive for that opening in hope. That is how I have faith.
I keep searching. That is what makes me different than the way life threw me before. I am at this calm.
And when I notice the moods switching into a deep low blues I just have to look for the truth in a situation. Finding what is supposed to pull me forward. When you experience that, in whatever way you need to, peace comes to your mind. Calm enters your spirit and energy builds your soul.
Perhaps one day I can say that a conversation over a stronghold will break the mortar enough to allow passage. Who know what is to come? All we can do is have faith, pray and remember of hope. This will help carry us outside all that is dark within.
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