The waking question
It is that kind of depth that leaves and a void in my entire spirit. Even though many years or maybe even never that the hole is filled. That opportunity is though, still open.
Sadly it sounds as though a longing lingers and harms but that is just it. There is no pain either way. There is just facts. Some would even say I was "waiting". And even in the greatest of moments, I would not hope to a deficient compacity.
I open my spirit to you. And whether it is taken or not, I am not ever going to be broken from the choice. See I have come to know that love comes in many forms. With that knowledge I can carry on with or without.
Sure on tender moments and even in dreams, I hurt but the most interesting of all is that I still can move. I am no longer in this motionless soul. And as I have gained wisdom about how life and love is to be handled I have come to the arrangement of where I stand in both.
So no matter where the roads carry I am still capable of accepting either acknowledgement or a wall. Really how the whole situations in life brings us to one question, how do you love?
Not live. Not breathe. Not even think. And to many parts, not how you feel.
For me I am here. Wherever the landings and foundations are, I am where I need to be for stability. For that sounds as though self absorbed but it is about a different type of security.
See what used to be a long stemmed pattern for me was that a human, one in particular, had to be in my life. The surroundings, the breath, the thought and the feelings. But as I grew into my real self I realized I wanted, I didn't need.
To this day I carry forward. When the day is completed and darkness is taking the light I understand there is not much ache but hope. Oh not for the void to be filled but to be happy with whatever comes to the new light.
As I sit here this morning I woke from a dream of all forms of kisses and hugs. Now as romantic as the dreaming sounds, the reality of what woke me demanded more of attention.
I slowly woke to the question of do I love you. And as the gradual wake happened, the answer unfolded into this. So do I love you? Yes. And yes I can be happy whether your choice in reality is in favor or not because I have learned a great deal about me to know there will always be a place for you. There is always reminders of the good parts of life.
Yet I do not linger in them too long. See I have just accepted I am where Jehovah wants me to be. You either want and need to be a part of me or you don't. Either way the road splits I am complete.
So the question really sits at your doorstep. Though I will never ask it. Contentment is what I have and for me, that is all I need to maintain my happiness, my joy.
Sadly it sounds as though a longing lingers and harms but that is just it. There is no pain either way. There is just facts. Some would even say I was "waiting". And even in the greatest of moments, I would not hope to a deficient compacity.
I open my spirit to you. And whether it is taken or not, I am not ever going to be broken from the choice. See I have come to know that love comes in many forms. With that knowledge I can carry on with or without.
Sure on tender moments and even in dreams, I hurt but the most interesting of all is that I still can move. I am no longer in this motionless soul. And as I have gained wisdom about how life and love is to be handled I have come to the arrangement of where I stand in both.
So no matter where the roads carry I am still capable of accepting either acknowledgement or a wall. Really how the whole situations in life brings us to one question, how do you love?
Not live. Not breathe. Not even think. And to many parts, not how you feel.
For me I am here. Wherever the landings and foundations are, I am where I need to be for stability. For that sounds as though self absorbed but it is about a different type of security.
See what used to be a long stemmed pattern for me was that a human, one in particular, had to be in my life. The surroundings, the breath, the thought and the feelings. But as I grew into my real self I realized I wanted, I didn't need.
To this day I carry forward. When the day is completed and darkness is taking the light I understand there is not much ache but hope. Oh not for the void to be filled but to be happy with whatever comes to the new light.
As I sit here this morning I woke from a dream of all forms of kisses and hugs. Now as romantic as the dreaming sounds, the reality of what woke me demanded more of attention.
I slowly woke to the question of do I love you. And as the gradual wake happened, the answer unfolded into this. So do I love you? Yes. And yes I can be happy whether your choice in reality is in favor or not because I have learned a great deal about me to know there will always be a place for you. There is always reminders of the good parts of life.
Yet I do not linger in them too long. See I have just accepted I am where Jehovah wants me to be. You either want and need to be a part of me or you don't. Either way the road splits I am complete.
So the question really sits at your doorstep. Though I will never ask it. Contentment is what I have and for me, that is all I need to maintain my happiness, my joy.
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