Days when some say, "I understand"

                 Days go by and some fall into wondrous play.
Then there are the days that are unexpectantly
low, lonely.

                 Funny how the days of joy are found
bounding down stairs, finding nature awaiting
to find me or even slow inhales of raindrops. All
of me without anyone else.

                 Those are the days I feel most radiant.
So decorated in a rainbow. So sure of who, I am
where I need to go and who really loves me.
                 
                  Alas the days, those tiny moments when
I feel most odd, a tad bit lonely and hope someone
gets me. Those are the times when I am surrounded by
many.  Those clear uncertainties that make me want
to escape yet I don't. Those are the times I need a
friend, not silence.

               Yet I know I expect too much of people. I
should not seek for a smile. I shall not ask, nor beg
for a word or two. I just had hoped by now some
really did understand me. Alas no one is a mind
reader and no one is perfect so I just go on.

             Ah the distances that separate. The silence
that is given. The words used to describe my actions ~
foolish, selfish, sarcastic and too much drama. Alas
if "understanding" were there the courteous behavior,
the dripping sarcasm would be washed away and
viewed as a veil.

           Though I cannot expect any one to get
what I am saying but those who say "yes, I understand
what you are saying" be genuine not hasty in
assuming.

          Because tonight I needed support and I got
silence. Alas all I can say is sorry to have hurt your
time with my "drama".

          Just needed someone to listen. Thanks for
being someone who says " I understand". For now I feel
even more numb and lost.

         So good night.